Tuesday, May 13, 2008


Do not be afraid, dear reader, that this post will only serve to depress you. I've had some good things happen to me lately, including a raise from work, 2 calls from (get this!) 2 guys, and I ran a mile and felt good about it. I'm that much closer to my 5K goal.

Bearing in mind that my blog explores the weird things that happen in my head at night, I'd like to tell you about the dream I had last night. I cried a lot. I woke up with tears on my face. There were 3 things that made me cry. The first is the funniest. I went to the movies with my mom, little sister, and little brother. I believe we were seeing the new Indiana Jones movie. We were really excited to go. We found the perfect seats and were waiting for the show to start when I suddenly remembered that I hadn't gotten any popcorn yet. I ran to the concession stand and placed my order. "Two large things of popcorn, please." (No, I wasn't going to eat it all myself...I was going to share...some.) Just then the manager came out and told me in a not nice way that I was never allowed to have popcorn again. I begged and pleaded with her to let me have some, but she refused to give in. I begged so long that I missed the movie and started to sob. I was heartbroken more over the popcorn than missing the movie.

The second thing that made me cry was a guy. Go figure. Same guy as the Coldstone entry. Same reasons. I thought I was doing fine. Apparently my subconscious thought otherwise.

The third thing that made me cry was a friend. This friend has been struggling in many ways and I'm very concerned for him. This isn't the place to list his struggles, but they require more help than what I can give. The most I can do is be supportive and pray for him. I don't know if he will read this or not, but if he does, I hope that he'll recognize how many people love him and care for him.

So that's my dream. Lack of popcorn makes me cry. So do boys. But I'll just keep thinking of the good things in my life and the tears will dry pretty quickly. At least, they won't show on the outside.